Yes, the title says it all. If you have followed The Cooking Canvas in the past or know little ole’ me personally, you might have noticed the lack of posts and passion for what once was. Sadly, after a lot of thinking and procrastinating, I have decided to retire The Cooking Canvas. Let me explain a bit.
It’s actually kind of funny. I can’t help but connect the analogy of a relationship when it comes to the blog. It just fits.
The blog and I have been together for almost three years. That is not just a summer fling. It says commitment. It’s a part of my family (Ryan helps with posts, Miss M is featured in photos, we actually eat the food – duh). I love and appreciate the learning journey we have been on together.
We started out so strong. Filled with passion even. I dreamed big with the blog. I could see us in the future, conquering the blogosphere and maybe making it my full time job! I jumped at every chance I could to share it with someone. I was so proud and excited about it.
At the beginning, I gave it all the attention that it deserved and things looked good. It was slowly growing in readership. I loved taking pictures, coming up with recipes, attempting witty posts. Those were the days!
It’s thinking about the past and the hope I had for the blog that makes me feel so bittersweet about breaking up with The Cooking Canvas.
It even fits the age-old cliche “it’s me, not you.”
I guess in between starting a new job, motherhood, moving, and looking forward into how I want to spend my daily time and efforts, I have lost the spark for the blog that once was. Truth be told, the idea of taking pictures of my food, just well…leaves me uninspired. I try coming up with excuses. “I’m too busy.” “I want to hang with Miss M.” “I’ve got to go to the store first.”
Uh…all are lame explanations for avoiding the root of the problem:
I don’t really feel like blogging about food anymore.
There I said it.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I still love to cook, I believe homemade food is the best food, and I will share a good recipe with anyone who has a tastebud. I’m not losing my mind after all.
Admittedly, the seemingly bagillion food blogs out there leave me feeling a little lack luster anyway, and although I have written posts of sustenance, my recipes are good, and I am always thinking about my next meal, I just don’t care to share them anymore in blog form. Furthermore, I used to find making dinner every night a chance to unwind, to be creative. It’s the time that got me thinking about a food blog in the first place. Any person, though, who has any combination of child-rearing and career in their life know that dinner is not always laissez-faire fun and that the weekends are not conducive for all day cooking.
Part of me says I am giving up. That I’m a wimp. That I just don’t put in the time. Maybe that is all true.
The other part of me, however, says that breaking up with The Cooking Canvas is a liberation and a chapter closing. Bittersweet as it may be. It says that I have other SUPER important parts of my life (see summer fun photos!) that I will be able to feel more “whole” about. Including my own creative journey.
While I sort out what to do next, I’m glad that the blog is not a real person, with feelings and its own commitment issues. Until I do make a decision, The Cooking Canvas will remain up and running with the recipes of the past. Thank you for stopping by and regardless, please keep cooking, and creating.
With love, Megan